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2008-06-07T21:49:00.000-07:00

Haha first post in 2008!
How time passses!
My english is getting lousier and lousier
Finally ROD ended! thx to all the juniors i knew how difficult it was to come up with performances and i liked them all! i was also once a cadet.
Lots of thing had passed and i do not have anymore time to regret any of my foolish actions. i never once think b4 i act.I'm going to respect my own decisions. whenever i think of the sichuan people i think about the mother. i keep thinking that if there's a earthquake.what will happen to me or my family. I may even do what the mother did, leave a note behind saying how i wish i can live. i maybe the one drinking urine and eating faeces.
Going to Cambodia was really an enriching experience, not everyone is that fortunate to live in a safe and secure country the killing field was really a heartbreaking sight for me, they are also humans like us, yet they are treated worse then an animal! i can't believe this is happening even in the 1980s. The orphans i met in the orphanage were really cute, but just because of a war, they lost their parents or even their own legs. If i were them, what would i do? i would just cry and cry. the women in the toul sleng museum even had the mind of jumping from the second floor to end their lifes. If i were them, What i would do? i'm so timid, maybe i would just wait to be sent to the killing field. i still enjoy the times where i get to know new friends
These few days, had been busy.D&T everyday, i'm always getting the wrong measurements also feeling fed up with my work. i dun know how am i going to my presentation board with poor drawing skills. life is full of ups and downs, we control our own fate!Do we really appreciate what we have all the time? everytime people are always saying save the earth, but did we really save the earth by using 'less' plastic bags? How are we going to throw the rubbish away? plastic bags again.

ENERGIZER

2007-12-02T15:41:00.000-08:00

I will miss everyone whom i have made friends with in NCOC 2007!It's been a great experience to know people from different schools.ENERGIZER is a good group to be in, although we are quiet at first but after that we learnt to open up!We had funny people, those who were outgoing and quiet ones.The camp is when we bonded as one group.Hope to see them soon! I will miss them lots!

No more tears

2007-11-05T05:06:00.000-08:00

I will not shed any more tears for my class. Efforts been made was taken for granted for some.I dun understand why my class always from sec 1 to 3 always very noisy.haix.I, Li Shilin, will not cry because i'm stress or even angry at anyone.I will swallow back my tears.
不准哭
我不要装可怜无辜

不想再为任何人哭
我要活出自己

哭让人觉得我很软弱
无论有多难我都能做到

hello!

2007-10-14T23:33:00.000-07:00

I'm here to tell you my biggest crush...........................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................張晉樵。He is so cute! let me introduce him to you

Cute right? handsome right? LOL still got one more photo

his handsomeness is look longer more shuai! his singing is superb can melt my heart.although he dun have his own song but when he sing other singer's song, he got his own style so nice!
My muscle cramp is like so pain.i walk like a pregnant lady.......tuesday is the next training for taiwan fieldtrip.bless me.張晉樵 here i come! i going taiwan leh. my dream is better then christina at least i get to go to taiwan but she have to go london. This is my lastest crush! LOL and it shall be the last one.

tuesday getting results le ba. regret also no use. EXAMS are always so stressful.but we have to deal with it isn't it. after this year i will be in sec4 hope that can graduate next year! My end of year i slacked more then in mid year i really think that i will do badly my L1B5 18 i think very difficult to acheive.

my blog very long never update haha. i always lidat one la last time my blog also lidat too lazy ma. now exam ended but i feel weird cause i get to relax for soo long.june holiday also not that shiok lo. december holiday is also going to be busy with all sort of stuffs. how i wish i get to grow up faster.

I dun really know where i want to go. poly or jc? its like competition is tough in this world haix.

last photo of my CRUSH!

blog

2007-09-01T17:38:00.000-07:00

i'm here to blog!
yay

BLOG!

post ended!

tagged

2007-07-15T21:39:00.000-07:00

Rules of the game:Each player of thid game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks!
1. i dun eat fruits
2.i'm scared about cats and dogs
3.i like to kill insects whether if it is a big beetle or a spider
4.i hate maths and science
5.i have the pianist fingers
6.i'm going to be overweight and not overweight yet!
7.i changed my mind in just one sec
8.i'm a slacker
9.i'm petty
10.FINALLY LAST ONE.I LIKE GREEN!

SORRY

2007-07-05T00:52:00.000-07:00

Am i always at fault?
i am petty i admit it but i hate it when people think that i am joking with them when i'm angry.
I have had enough of all those arguing.I'm do admit i make mistakes but sometimes i asked myself,why am i always apologising when sometimes i think that its not my fault.I maybe kiasu in somethings or all but i am just kiasi.i'm scared and had no confidence in myself.i need reassurance from my friends,thats why sometimes i asked lame qns.I'm not trying to say that i am being bullied.i just wanted to express what i think,i need somewhere to let me vent everything out.sometimes i'm angry over small things,but that is the real LI SHILIN.I can't change overtime.I'm trying, its hard.......
I'm emoing......
nobody is supporting me,arguing back is just making me more defendless.sometimes,i just hope that someone will just help me talk back.....
one last time,SORRY! for being so petty and always saying i'm the miserable oneSORRY!:((((
I'm going to think over what i had done.
I'm just me,a normal girl,LI SHILIN,i just hope someone will support me, let me confide in them.Its really depressing to find out that your friends does not speak a word for you.
I'M WRONG,ALL I'VE DONE.
sorry for being angry just because you kicked my butt or took the duster to make my sleeve and i revenged with more and in the end i ended up with more duster powder.
From primary school till now, i realised one thing, i relied too much on my friends.sometimes,i am taken advantage of.
I'm just complaining to myself,just let me, a normal person,complain for once.
SORRY FOR TOLERATING WITH ME!

tomorrow is school reopen!!!!!

2007-06-23T14:45:00.000-07:00

SIANX tmr school reopening which is a disaster!i yesterday from 9pm-6am do hmwrk can vomit blood liao la.still left so many.i not teacher why must find two different sources to compare?????later they kup us student's sources set as exam qns.i must chiong again SIAN!!!!!!!i'm still left with
ss sources,ss workbook,chinese bookreview and 3 jianbao,heymaths qns 33,34,35,eng two compo and enrichment project,geo mindmap and correction.

haha i'm back

2007-06-10T21:37:00.000-07:00

Everyone HELLO!i'm back haha
i will talk about ROD nite,Chongfu camp and what i did in the holidays LOL
ROD nite
Actually i was more scared instead of happy haha cause need to dance buttons but i did not do as expected:(sorry seniors gu fu le ni men.the performance done by plt 1 and 2 were great.i'm proud of them:)sometimes i can be really pek chek but that does not matter as long as their final performance was great.i knew even the final performance there was sometimes where it cocked up but its over.we have to happily bid our seniors goodbye.i do think that last year it was more fun there was more then one reason one of them is it is in the hall instead of the parade square.i like outdoors haha.our plt did the longest bili banjar haha.GOODBYE SENIORS!WE WILL MISS YOU!
Chongfu Camp
In this camp, i get to know lots of friends everyone of them.actually i dreaded going to this camp cause b4 this i did not noe even one of them ok except for gerald lol.i was assigned to a group.i think i'm the more incapable group leader cause the students were very cold not even one said goodbye to me lol.nvm.they were quite cute.i remember their names.ho fung,zheng hao,joel,bryan,i dun remember the girls.LOL nvm i remember their looks.in this camp i called their names over hundred times cause one of them will go missing for like 5 secs very headache.
Day 1
we have captains ball.zheng hao likes to drink water he can carry his water bottle to play the game.i was like oh my tian.but he is quite knowledgeable.haha.then teabreak, i have to eat their leftover biscuits haha,too paiseh to take.we also had to think of cheers.our group name is SPIDEY!haha.S-P-I-D-E-Y,we are strong and very steady,we can overcome obstacles,we can defeat criminals,we are first in everything.GO SPIDEY!then we have flag painting,the flag was very small haha cause teacher say dun give too big one ma not my fault.O.O<------although my eyes not very big.we went to night safari.the kids really very cute haha i tell them the lion will eat them if they dun keep quiet they really keep quiet partly because they are fascinated by the night creatures haha.
Day 2
we went to sentosa,took loads of photos had loads of fun too.sentosa oxygen water is 1.80.people bring your own water there haha.fort siloso is nice but the weather is very hot.zhenghao is very funny haha.his group cannot tahan him cause he always say old people say.he say old people say cannot sit on the groud to eat.then cannot sit on a sun shone sit.lots and lots sometimes even i cannot tahan haha.there is campfire night everyone cheered happily haha zheng hao has the ant award.ho fung has the cheetah award.the staying over group leaders had a supper party it was fun haha talking about the kids.
Day 3
packing up the kids gave us a 'surprise'Thanks ALOT:)everybody dance now!

i should recommend jasena to sivah haha.

Having a bad sore throat and flu.
went to jie priscilla,lengchee and cheryl from taiwan.haha not as fun as expected but my poster is ARTISTIC can?seems like they had lots of fun hope i can go too.

GLADYS KOH if you keep emoing i think i should let you use my blogskin!LOL
SMILE ALWAYS!:)))))))))))))))))))

My Birthday!

2007-05-22T19:44:00.000-07:00

Today is a very special day cause its my birthday!LOL.today never celebrate with my friends.busy with stuffs.But nvm i knew that my exam results are quite good but my COMBINED HUMANS and CHEMISTRY are making me crazy.NVM.
Thanks to those who wished me happy birthday:)
I really appreciate it anyway the world would not stop turning even if its my birthday.life goes on and i have to MUG!
From last year till now i have been asking for a tuition teacher.where's HIM/SHE.
MY WISH FOR THIS YEAR
-slim down to a acceptable size(every woman wants that)
-Pass my chemistry and combined humans with flying colours.
-Get better results for the End of Year EXAM
-get L1R5 of 15
-WORLD PEACE!HAHA!
-NC11/5 to get CHAMPION for FA COM
-everyone to be happy and healthy!
:) HO!HO!HO!HO!HO!

EXAMS!

2007-05-06T06:29:00.003-07:00

EXAMS WEEK is so RAAR!haha no words to describe.
been mugging everyday.but sometimes i never follow the timetable that i created.mye is like so stress can.i have to pass all with flying colours or else i'm going to RAAR.haha.i dun want to slack!i need motivation!i'm scared to fail any subjects.it will mean that i deproved which i do not want.

Friday,went to jog,i never STOP haha.and i never intended to stop which was so good!if 2.4 also lidat i think i can get faster timing.but that tina say my attire very aunty.but i dun care i think its pretty.maybe cause my mother say very nice so it makes me look like a aunty.lol.and she still keep laughing when i do my stretching.its very important one k?or else got muscle cramp ah.

Saturday went swimming with yy,gladys and priscilla.BEFORE THAT I MUGGED FOR 1 HR 30 MIN.haha very fun and i have to tip toe in the deep pool cause i'm only 157cm tall cannot blame me mah.i trapping water then they tip toe so cannot talk ma but they dunno then i keep turning LOL.the deep pool alot of people so got kicked byt quite a lot of people and i tangled with someone haha.the security guard thought we cannot swim cause yy want me to carry her swim but sure drown one.so haha.

after that gladys and priscilla came my house.played audition and 02jam haha.

Today i mugged from 1-3.30 then rest then continued from 6-7 something.then slack then play piano. i noe how to play TONG HUA.haha.only WO YUAN BIAN CHENG TONG HUA LI NI AI DE NA GE TIAN SHI only.lol.but thousand legged worm i noe how to play with right hand haha.

continuing to mug at 9:45?10? i dunno haha cause i like to drag time

HELLO!

2007-04-13T22:33:00.000-07:00

I like the post DEPUTY CHIEF EXECUTIVE very much haha cause its nicer then SECRETARY.HOCCHMT---->Hua Mei Ting is one step closer to her dreams haha.CSM---->HOCCHMT.Christina also got her ideal and pervetic post, FOOTDRILL INSTRUCTOR.Last but not least,Xiao Zhou is the LOGISTIC.Both meiting and christina got their post so I no need to dance for ROD.YAY!haha.Other's post are their ideal post too but some were not happy.Those who didn't get their ideal post,try your best.Our corp is so big you can train the cadets even if you are not the FD or FA instructor.

ONE MORE STEP TO BECOME THE ELITES OF THE ELITES PLATOON!:)

2007-04-07T01:01:00.001-07:00

haha by popular demand i'm here to blog.
these few days alot of things happened.juniors and seniors were more bonded.BBQ at (should i say madm)yy's chalet haha."honey do you love me?if you love me please smile"haha i always laugh and mt so seductive.christina in the end became very li hai.
that time when we went to queenstown or queensway i dunno which one,we very high haha.went to ikea to take photos.
I heard that there's a combined ug cycling.But when i tell mt i told her there's a bicycling cause i suddenly forgot how to say haha.
yesterday was very fun!we went to kbox haha and my qi yue qi ri qing very high pitch haha.after that when to eat then took neoprints.haha only two of it have my full face.HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CPL YULING AND CPL DENICE!

i lazy to put the photos haha go see meiting's blog

Saturday

2007-02-10T06:39:00.001-08:00

Yesterday i took the attendance which is quite okay but after that i keep going to st john room cause i left my correction tape at the room. i knew that i took the attendance very long cause everyone was like buay tahan i also sweating.But being answered yes lance coporal is so shuang haha.even if i didn't get secretary i won't regret at least i had marked b4 the attendance.now i think of the time when we going to take over and COMPETITION.Hope that my parents will allow me to stay at xiaozhou's house.haha.take more mtvs.yesterday we in charge but i never train the sec 1s and 2s at all.haha.lol.nvm sure got chance one.
TINA is that okay?
not okay i also end liao.byebye

2007-01-20T03:08:00.001-08:00

Nc11!yesterday was a emo day for me.i get pek chek very easily so sorry.sorry for letting you all worry for me.when you can't do a thing well for a lot of times,you will get frustrated and i won't make jokes of people anymore.i'm feeling stressful.com is coming and i can't perfect my hormat and i'm too tense up.Sec 3 life is tough not understanding the subject can be irritating and everyweek four times a day training can be sian and tired.i have to wait after the com for a tuition teacher.i'm weak in EMS which is a gone case already if i'm going to fail all three.What does the school expect from us when we have to study until 5 almost everyday.i knew i have to get over it but why do we have to compare with schools from other country.Maybe they want to break the record of being the first school to end lessons at 5 in SINGAPORE.everyday getting up at 5.20 going home at 5 is very tiring.pushing us to the end is not the best way to get 100% passes in o'lvl.although it is not our honeymoon period, it is also not a bittersun period!haha.

hi i'm back

2007-01-17T20:19:00.000-08:00

Everyone i'm back haha.First of all i will talk about com team.NC11 will bring glory to the school.all of us are emoing as we do have stress, our goal is not just second but first!i dunno,our group is very stress as we might not get we want.Not getting champion is not only a dissapointment to us but to the whole corp the faith everyone have in us is very scary we do not noe whether we could make it.if we lose i think that we have to face it and hug together and cry.its not just about practising,sometimes its about luck.everyday when i come back i will think about com team and the breaking up of diff teams its affecting us too we just have to pick up ourselves and move on. NC!! Jiayou even if we are emo we should emo together,thats what is for all for one one for all.brace up!Promotion test is coming and i do not noe if after the promotion test,some of our ranking will be diff and will our relationship go sour?no one noes.i hope that our batch will excel and bring a higher level for st john.i want those who look down on st johns to regret what they had done.

moving on, i have studies.i knew that i will not be able to do well in maths and science i really think that what i learnt in sec2 for science was nothing at all,all the things the teacher say i could not understand and that lead to my not understanding of it in science or rather more on chemistry.i tried to love the subject but i dunno if i will succeed.

NC11 yi ding hui ying.lets emo together!

Com team!

i think my blog very inconsistent cos i too lazy to type haha

2006-12-10T23:28:00.000-08:00

Hi everyone!

tina putting on braces WOW!and asian games is like not as interesting as before cos park tae hwan not swimming liao he went back to his country liao ba.he looks cute but too bad he's from korea.cannot go see him cos the airfare too expensive.nvm.next year can see him in commonwealth games at march.he is just handsome and a great swimmer.talented and good looking,at my expectations haha think too much liao.meiting sure say very good for me haha.too bad yu yan bu tong.anyway i forgot the formulas for volume and tsa for all the "containers".i also forgot the median and mode haiz.dunno how to coop with my studies next year.but i so lazy haiz haiz haiz.and in a half an hours time is meiting's birthday.and the qi yue qi ri qing is so nice to sing.haha.i'm scared of mock com cos i'm being timer and doing cpr whereby cpr is my weakness dun care focus on the real com is the most important thing.

new entry

2006-11-30T05:03:00.001-08:00

ok!everyone my blog is not dead yet haha.had quite many trainnings some were nice some were boring but i did enjoy training and you konw what?We are getting our boots hollow!yay!haha.today cleaned st john room so neat haha bcause i got help.haha.now our group keep thinking of stomp haha.number four check if there's any camera.i finally did not make any mistake when showing madm.whew.and going karaoking with nc11.i think so or xz.i going to sing non stop haha.must show them my vocal power.still got what to post?and i dunno why i call nai you cos i only have nai no you haha.i first aid always very kan chiong must change,nursing also nothing to do must change,footdrill slow march is so irritating.next year is a busy year and i'm sure i will flunk my d&t.comcomcomcomcomcomcomcomcomcomcomcomcomcomcomcomcomcomcomcomcomcom
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comcomcomcomcomcomcomcomcomcomcomcomcomcomcomcomcomcomcomcom is so making me CRAZY ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.nc11 team hog tie.team cute haha.

ARRRRGGGHHHH!I'm going to explode

2006-10-30T23:03:00.000-08:00

Why i have the freedom to choose but in the end he still not happy!i wanted to go which class you say let me choose but in the end you still not happy and you said its none of your business if i regret.wth!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My blog is like so dead so i did CPR for it

2006-10-28T21:11:00.000-07:00

ok today nco course finally noe how scary the sirs and madms are.i no xin li zun bei then i damn scared sia.my hands and legs quite pain.but learnt quite a lot of things.yesterday went to run with jessie then i every time gastric long time never run liao.
i just realised 1 thing, never treat people too good or else they will just treat you as a shit.i dunno maybe i'm just a punching bag or being used.i dunno wat to do already maybe i'm just a scaredy cat.anyway next year cuming le hope that i can study well in a new class and study peacefully.i studied in a tail-end class for two years and its not good at all.
Goodbye 2E8

hihi!

2006-10-17T20:43:00.000-07:00

Today continue blogging hahas.i damn upset with my science lo.my teacher everyday say if you dun study you will go na or nt then nag nag.you think we really want to go ah?if more then half the class failed science then should be something wrong with your teaching but you just thought it is our fault.did you ever try to help us?everyday always keep suaning people.today i get scolded because i threw a bottle to the dustbin but missed then when to the corridor then got some teacher saw then scold me,i noe i at fault but its not like i had a serious offence i don remember a rule in the stardate stating that i cannot throw things into the bin.i wanted to go and pick up but she thought i never go then shout.i was like damn yuan wang lo.you cool down leh.sorryif you thought i hit you but you no need so angry mah.i did okok for EOY but i scared my maths cause haven get back.i got alot of decimals in paper 2.wish me good luck!hehe!

cause miss alot of blogging so second entry

2006-09-07T20:08:00.000-07:00

today see miss tham for rod and as seniors our performance is not up and the sec1s already have their performance but no malay,indian.nvm cause their indian and malay are with us i think.we decided to sing and i'm more comfortable with it cause i suck at dancing.christina was greeted at mrt station haha.then they come my house to discuss.i can be in drama club cause i always act.haha.

ncoc camp

2006-09-07T19:59:00.001-07:00

you all want to blog me ncoc camp so i blog.
Day 1
we report then sinyi's pole get chosen as the most not like pole cause still have plastic wrapper and a handle hahas.then my group quite ok and the group name is determine.our motto is ENTHU.i guess denise will be the best group leader cause she got the calibre.i saying seriously.me,meiting,christina same group very happy but without xiaozhou not as fun as having her.we played games the water bomb is nice and the spider web is so irritating.water fountain the number can write larger cause my perfect eyesight also cannot see clearly.we made our group flag.the lectures okok.but they say my eyes very red.actually having pt is ok but later i say really got.touchwood.then we go bath.the cubicles are like so little.ya,its my school but its really very little and the boys dun let us use the cubicle.being a ncoc must learn to sacrifice their ownselves for others.i did that.my highest record is i can shower in 7 minutes,clean.they leh,20 minutes also have.
Day 2
Eat breakfast the biscuit i take too many den i also duno what's wrong wif me and i eat really very slow.the after that duno wat then field cooking we left too much ration yesterday so must eat two packets myself and yesterday we three person share two packet haha.then after that,we change into our full u.then got one sweat drop into my eye then argghh.then in the bus,got one person say she lost her handphone in the end is dropped at one person's seat.we reached there then saw shuyan mdm.she's the best and siti mdm also.the agi okok la but the people faint anytime if i on duty very suay sure must run.after that got hike we eat eat eat then walk walk walk then rest rest rest then walk walk walk.from 10 walk to 2.still must fall in cause the sir want to noe strength of course la.the course leader damn suay always kena scolded its not his fault being ncoc does not mean noe everything ma.but i think he should fall all of us out then face him den fall in then report.is it correct?i dunno.after that the showering time is irritating again and we slept at 3 must wake up at 8 but woke up at 7.30.forget liao.

Day 3
then is break camp time.yay.
we must clean the bunk.okok
then break camp!
we go eat then talk talk talk then go home

The End

today

2006-08-26T20:52:00.000-07:00

today went to do community service.quite fun cos i was assigned to clean the toilet.lol.then melvin say wat toilet united.after that went to bugis to buy bag.i and christina lazy to climb stairs for the mrt so we took escalator but the escalator did not connect to where we want to go,so we took lift down.then there is two door right?so we stand on dunno which side.but when the lift said bee bee bee reached the floor liao.but we thought why the door nv open,so we stand there like dumbos thinking for like 15 seconds,we thought something was wrong so we turned around,haha thats the most exciting part.the lift door on the other side opened.then we quickly walked out cos there were three men looking at us and laughing.we also invented the hand dance move for'everytime we touch'.i bought a nice bag but meiting say not nicer then xiaozhou,nvm i appreciate that haha.

another thing that i want to say to a person.I AM A HYPOCRITE.but to me everyone is a hypocrite.i'm a coward i did not want to offend anyone by showing them attitude,thats me.yes i've changed but i tried to change for the better although i thought i changed from bad to worse.someone is also an hypocrite to me who is a gossiper but its not you.i dunno when did you think that i am a hypocrite but if thats wat you think i would not deny it or agree with it.i hate most about a type of person who when you talked secrets to they will just say it out,why can't they just zip up their mouth and mine their own business.Being left out and feeling bad is not wrong why i could not feel bad,ya you experienced it before and you noe how bad it is.I admit that its not that much about you and your ex thingy but what i did not feel happy about is because you always think that you are correct and others are wrong.its my own opinion take it or leave it.did you ever tried not showing attitude to someone for a day.stubborness is not always the way out.if you feel that i offended you i'm sorry.but do you noe what others feel when you show attitude to them.ya,i show you attitude,but i dunno what other ways i have to do cos ignoring you is to escape.you might think i'm talking crap but if you really don't agree,i can do nothing.I hurt you,sorry but there is nothing i can do,a friendship is like a relationship,if we do not have a common topic,i could not do anything but to avoid you.but i can tell you,i felt angry of you too.cause i'm tired of your attitude towards anyone.If you think i'm a "jia hao ren"suit you.
but i can just say sorry and find a friend that will be able to talk to you and concern you.but i just could not change my attitude towards you.In fact,i wanted to win you in all things.sorry for that selfishness.i won't mind if you treat me as an invisible for your whole life.seriously,i won't mind.if you really hate me,hate me with all your might.you ought to do that cos i felt like i am a rotten person.HATE ME!

emotional day

2006-08-19T20:00:00.001-07:00

thank you shat ting for counselling me.haha.
maybe i was too emo but i can't help it k?i tried not to care but i can't.just like qiulin i thought why she was very angry when she saw her two bestfriends talking so closely and she felt very ......she's not being too emo too she just felt very bad just like me.she cried but she did not want any pity she just felt that why she must treated that way.she did not request for her tears to be shed,she just felt sad.when you can't blend in well with your friends you will feel left out and nobody wants to speak to you.its like you standing in the middle of a highway road,cars driving and nobody cared.they just carry on to drive but u-turning cause they are afraid to crash into you. thats all.I'm thinking too much but i just can't kan kai.maybe i'm thinking too much.but i did not act emo.everyone has a quiet side.i am an odd one out so i'm not needed and i moved on.i did not want to just rely on them like a glue sticking to them but i felt angry.i admitted it but i just didn't want to say it out.i know that this blog can be seen by others but sometimes writing is better then saying.when someone dun feel like talking to you and just felt like ignoring you, you will feel bad.i finally know how i treated people when i ignored them,they will feel sad and felt innocent,that was not their fault but why they are ignored.i am not acting,i will show my emotional straight away.that was not a form of getting attention.i felt really upset when i was said that i was acting emo,i maybe very quiet but i'm not acting,i'm really feeling
bad.

change blogskin

2006-08-13T19:44:00.000-07:00

chang blogskin liao.today i know one new word,mugging haha i saw people put i thought is concerning cup hahas.i dunno what to blog ahhhhhh!exams suck.i dunno even a single word that my science teacher taught how to study.i dun plan to be a scientist or mathematican why should i study for these two subject why can't which subject to strudy.if i already knew what i want to do in secondary school can i choose the subjects concerning it instead of studying and studying a subject which i will not be using!i'm complaining and complaining haha.some teachers even look down on us.i maybe in the tail end class but you do not need to be so insulting right,tail end classes does not always are the group of people who were the culprits of every single offence that were commited.i hate the teacher who acted that she belived that we can go to better class but were just saying that she looked down on us.i failed the test bcos you did not taught us well but you used that as a point and shoot me back.i also duno why i blogged so emo i also could not help it ahhhhhhhhh!i hope that term test,end of year test will be over and comp team training will be coming.nc11'2005 is the best.nc??'2006 will the best also

never blog for long time

2006-08-10T18:27:00.000-07:00

tomorrow is geo and hist test i dun want to dissapoint myself but i totally forgot to bring my geo book back ahhhhhhh and my history notebook.nvm.i will do my best not try but DO.ndp parade finish liao finally can rest but i noe that this year's batch and last year's batch was a large difference,we were not that good compared to last year.i feel like reading the whole dictionary to improve my english but does that helps?dun talk about subjects.ROD cuming,NCOC camp cumin but i dun feel like going to NCOC camp cos i dun eat fruits and the sirs and madm surely force me to eat ahhhh!you all sure think very funny people worry other things but i worry about this.term test i do my best for it.hope to go to 3/5 or3/6 hope that i really can or else i will be very very sad.and hopefully mrs lee won't be my form teacher again.and yesterday went swimming then i sunburnt.today go study at mac learnt about sets.thanks to meiting,xiao zhou and christina for today and yesterday.

NDP

2006-08-04T22:00:00.000-07:00

haiz!i really hate the person standing in front of me dunno how to do footdrill then go there action only dunno how to do proper footdrill then there teach us what to do you think you so clever then go be csm why you don't have double promotion you so clever and so extra think you always right our seniors have the right to lecture us not u.okay!today the four of us bought sweets for tomorrow than christina make me laugh like i siao.then i laugh until i sit on the floor.HAHAcos they all suddenly speak in a english slang then i want to speak but christina keep talking non stop until i can't argue back.but very fun hahas the whole platoon quite united but if you are tured just say maybe you are really tired but if you say who will know if you are unwillingly nobody will force you to do it.and the so called very pro soccer cca got some people really very idiotic.if you want to fight go outside fight we are civilised people, soccer is not about kicking ball out of the fence,do you know how to play soccer?And today scolded by teacher two times and i felt irritated.i at first say don wan also cannot then was brought to the fitness corner i knew something will happen.os it my fault i already said i dunwan maybe no free pe is better at least no need to get scolded.then some people got do but don dare to admit.they are so damn bloody!haha!

PS:I have another word:animals=anoymous
I want to pass all my subjects and a tuition teacher ARGH

Good day

2006-07-31T22:23:00.000-07:00

so i should stop discussing about the karaoke thingy.just shun qi zi ran.today went to eat pizza hut the spagetthi very nice and someone vomitted......blah.i said i want to eat dessert then mariah laughed at me cos its desert.hahas.new word in my tionary.three cheers and three cheers and three cheers for my supporters.clap*33.hahas,haven even sing got supporter already.diao.only three maybe xiaozhou too but she also going so best regards to her cos i noe my standard.HAHA.nvm don't say already.then meiting saw first aid kit in kiddy palace then she really serious in choosing one that is good and can be used.hahas.i think must buy one real first aid kit for her birthday present liao.she still want laptop sia think we very rich,nvm ask karang guni give you free one or maybe i 4 years old play one in the storeroom can give you,i very good one.then we go library,we very guai kia one mah.haha.i took a lot of books about bullys then they say i purposely one.haha.i anyhow take one lo.we wrote meiting's birthday wishlist but in the end she still want first aid kit.we then went home,my english is getting bad to worse and term test is coming haiz......miss loh i really hope you can be my english teacher,why you never teach us english at the starting of the year.i not refering mrs lee not good but she is just too focused on our grammar and vocab instead of teaching us how to write a good compo.

Who can save me

PS

why does humans have brains

2006-07-29T20:11:00.002-07:00

if i am an animal maybe i will be happie.eat,sleep then die.humans are so complicated.study,study and more study.Is life really just studying?I love singing but why can't friends be supporting instead of being insulting.i also dunno why i got so agitated and compare myself wif others.i just can't control myself anymore!i just want to study and have good grades and find a good job but am i requesting too much.i just want to have good friends in class is that too much.maybe i treated someone badly but is that retribution.i just could not control myself.i may look happy-go-lucky but still i felt lonely sometime.If you dun like someone will you still talk to her?i dun one to be fake.if i'm angry with you or i just dun feel like talking to you i will not just treat you like normal,i will just ignore you,thats me.Now then i know secondary school life is really different from primary school.so many things had changed.when i'm primary 6,i do not noe what is friendster or even blogspot.i think i'm repeating.nvm.i got good cca mates,that is enuf.In class,just study,not depending on anyone.TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!TUITION TEACHERS I WANT QUICK COME!

PS:Meiting cannot remember people's birthday
I got my own english dictionary called"Shilin'stionary"
I will still coment on others

Blog revived

2006-07-24T08:04:00.001-07:00

Now i officially declare that my blog revived again.hahas like a phoniex.i hate my science teacher why she have to judge people by how we passs or not pass if i did not pass why did you not think its your fault instead of mine.nvm donwan to dampen my spirits.today i made a word supa.i want to buy super soya milk instead i said it as supa soya milk,funny?funny then laugh la.lol.haha.i am desperately needing a tuition teacher who can help me in english,maths,science.help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!argh!i may not be a genius but i'm not an idiot.but the maths and science teacher are hopeless they just can't teach proper maths and sci.we are the last class but there are sum who want to study k!but why you just assume that i did not study for science?i did want to studybut you did not gave me a chance!can't you just improve your english that i can understand.although my english not good.i finally know that i'm not a genius but if i just read the textbook will it help?why must they skip syllabus that make things difficult for us.haizzzzzzzzz.school is irritating.cca rulez

2006-06-24T23:04:00.001-07:00

now i will start blogging without commenting about others.just be a normal blogger who talk abt daily life.......................................boring

homework

2006-06-18T22:55:00.000-07:00

the teacher all give so hard de homework now i zi tao ku chi cannot even finish a subject a day haiz.wish all of you good luck for your homework.

holiday

2006-06-17T12:55:00.000-07:00

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arggh.
beautiful boxer is a great movie must watch.
the st john camp is fun although not wif my com team mates.and others look at other people blog if you can find it.thats the end.

why must put title?

2006-06-06T00:00:00.000-07:00

countdown to camp:3 more days
can be excited but also not excited cause heard alot of ghost stories,my cousin say i am not smart bcos of this.If you really saw it you will not say that.but i have nv seen 1 b4 so cannot say he wrong.hope i can have fun.If you ask me why i need to make things complicated.i will also tell i dunno why.I now believe that there will not be anything that is not complicated.this is reality, everyone may just backstab you anytime that is what secondary school life was about hearing people backstabbing each other.I am also a strong believer that there is still person that you can trust because there are some friends that i can trust.In reality,everything is complicated.I do not think there will be any fairytale.just like a suyu "tian xia mei you bu san de yan xi".real friendship and love is getting lesser and lesser.but love i dunno and i am not mature enough to handle it so i do not care about it now.what i mean is bgr.people changed too fast,fast enough that i cannot guess what is inside their mind.maybe some uses that to protect themselves.i too also changed alot from primary school.i do not window shop when i was in primary school.i took neoprint only once near graduation when i was in primary school. now i have a collection of more then hundred?why i do things always san fen zhong re du.whywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhy
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whywhywhywhywhywhywhy.hahas.humans are complicated.thats why people always read comics,watch ou xiang ju.cause they hope to have a same life as the character.that was quite immpossible they could not get what they want so they have to just read or watch these things in order to "man zhu"themselves.just like me.

Good luck to me and others for sjab camp.

starting of holiday

2006-05-28T00:39:00.000-07:00

i dun think i can enjoy my holiday except for the upcoming sjab camp. i just hate homework everytime holiday homework cannot enjoy.countdown to st john camp 12 days meiting say one.going to malaysia to visit my grandparents.feel like this month holiday very short.suddenly felt that i am not very popular in my class like not many people will talk to me felt so lonely but when i saw my cca friends i brightened up again.Its like when i approach the "sumone"she will very bu shuang de answer me.anywae she is not from my cca so dun be mistaken.I always like to chao jia wif people cause i think its fun but you no need to be so feng ci everythiing i do you always think its bad and criticise me.i may be fat but i have my own fashion sense and i hate people who compare me wif others ya i not as cute so!at first you told me you dun like her then i told you yes i dun like her then go around and spread say i dun like her but never include yourself.dun take advantage of wat you have,i let you sing first but in the end almost all the songs were sang by you.i felt betrayed by you ya very childish but that is the word to describe.if you are tired of me tell me,dun do things behind my back.you said you treat her well is jia jia one i dun really believe you . in everyways you are just a pai ma pi-an.i really feel that i am a sucker, i dunno how to deal wif relationship problems, i'm saying the friends kind.i'm always make fun of which i hope not.i just hope i can escape from secondary school and start a new life in polytechnic.

duno wat happened

2006-05-05T21:10:00.000-07:00

Everydae saw her face like chou4 chou4 dunno wat i should say to her i dunnoe wat topic to sae as i am tired of being the one to start the conversation.to me i'm considered lucky for not being hurted by anione.i dunno why but since primary one till now i'm always treating people hot and cold and i do not wish to but i'm just irritated.Sorry to those who i treated badly,i just could not control.sometimes i'm jealous of her,why she was born pretty and cute and her relationships wif other people is better then me,maybe some people cannot accept how i treat them as i will treat you as my good friend if you treated me well but after that maybe they felt that i did not think of their feelings i just hope that there will be someone whom i will not be irritated of or treat badly.but now i think differently or just temporary.people are born wif different features i will wish that return to the past. i hope that i could return to the past when i saw her happy face everyday.i'm a person wif very low tolerance,if i'm very angry i will cry,if i'm pain i will also cry.
why must a always happy-go-lucky girl be hurted by those who backstabbed her and that man whom make her so miserable now, i rather she did not go through that relationship,at least she will not be that heartbroken.maybe because i had not been hurt by those boys.why is there BGR,it always hurt girls.i know this because i had saw lots of people hurt in 2e8. maybe they are happy together ,but if eventually you will be hurt i will as well expect not to be in it.I still have my friends and family, ren ru guo mei you le yi si de huo xia qu,na shi zui tong ku de yi jian shi.

After all this is just my Thinking don't take it to heart if you don't agree.

Just want to say a big sorry! to all those out there who i showed bad attitude to!

saturday training

2006-02-25T20:07:00.000-08:00

today i was sianzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.But very funny,when i was doing first aid pratical i told num 1 that there is a wire lying on the floor then i go pick up.the seniors all like expecting to pick up then i electric shock hahas.the foot drill was sianzzzzzzzzzzz.always repeat then my num 1 command very soft that she use her diaphram like "zhao sia"then i was controlling not to laugh.she is already pratising so i think should not blame her.then this week always term test.my subject that will surely fail,science,english.okay okay,maths.literature,history.dunno wat to say for chinese,i wish to get great marks but not much hope just hope that i can pass.i every subject except for science study for at least 1 hour.
My predict was always wrong so dunno lah!

training

2006-02-15T04:53:00.000-08:00

todae is total defence dae!wearing full uni.after that got training we self train until 4 sumthing then the "pervertic guy"told us to do drill until my legs pain until cannot wlk properly.i still got contusion wound(bruise).helppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

wednesdae

2006-02-08T16:51:00.000-08:00

todae i have no unlucky things haha.science teacher never come.todae need to do maths so many questions haiz.fell like copying ut too many already cannot copy.todae have the sexuality programme.then our class almost all the boys going crazy.dunno excited for what.we are not having that for the first time.the the person talking to us say we very attentive.anyway some people will just not listen and carry on to do that 'thing'.Fund raising i going to help kelita to cook fishball hehe......her house got cat.......nvm.i'm not "scared".felling sleepy

hi

2006-02-06T18:17:00.000-08:00

todae lucky very peaceful.dunno need to do 4 book reviews or 1 haiz.but chinese period i just tap on angelina then she say i hit her in the end teacher stare at me so what. the teacher make me fail the test talk so long winded.have to study by my own.

saturdae!

2006-02-04T21:16:00.000-08:00

As usual i went for my training wich i think was bad for me.at first there was a mental skills "lecture".it was kind of fun.One of my sec 3 seniors was telling me to pass the package of mummy to her but as i throw to her,another sec 4 senior told me not to pass to her.after that it was like my fault.i was really not earin the don't pass to her thing when i threw it to her.then my footdrill sux,i made 3 mistakes in a roll.i was like what the!then i go to my old neighbours house which was sianxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

bad day

2006-02-03T21:04:00.000-08:00

todae luckily lessons were good but my cca terrible.i have bfa test which was basic first aid test,hate it.the sir was like a crazy horse as he call himself i think so.when we doing bandadging he saw what we did and th whole sjab failed lol,but he gave us another chance.the mcq very little pass you noe why?the passing rate was 16/20 siao.i got 12.the cpr i'm totally upset i did all the things correctly suddenly i do artificial ventilation which was suppose to be two blows i was like aiyah so stupid.the retest,i did it with haste and was almost making mistake.luckily i passed the retest but i hate myself why am i so unlucky i should change my blog into 'diary of a unlucky girl'.i dunno why did i do something wrong and offended the gods.why i have to be so unlucky.i was shaking during the cpr.then i heard that cpr is a must and i know that why i chose this cca i also dunnoe.maybe for fun or maybe i wanted ranks or i really wanted this cca badly,why i like this cca,maybe its really nice ad cosy but haiz.signed off at 9.04pm

hi all

2006-02-01T23:58:00.000-08:00

starting a new blog because i quited maple and was bored.
lets start about todae.I was shock that i failed my chinese,that teacher who set the test paper like always make teest papaers which let us fail.nvm i must get at least 65 to get back my marks.TERM TEST!hope remedial can start sooner.i don't want to go to na.if i fail chinese again i can go jump down building already.maybe becos i was born in the year of monkey so got so unlucky.And i discovered that on thursdays,bad luck will happen to me.I have never ever felt that sad,since thursdays.i very superstitious one(dunno how to spell).going to put on blogskin soon.I'm not stupid too very nice.but makes me cry halfway want to laugh.like i siao already.crying that time still have to laugh very tiring sia.