emotional day

thank you shat ting for counselling me.haha.
maybe i was too emo but i can't help it k?i tried not to care but i can't.just like qiulin i thought why she was very angry when she saw her two bestfriends talking so closely and she felt very ......she's not being too emo too she just felt very bad just like me.she cried but she did not want any pity she just felt that why she must treated that way.she did not request for her tears to be shed,she just felt sad.when you can't blend in well with your friends you will feel left out and nobody wants to speak to you.its like you standing in the middle of a highway road,cars driving and nobody cared.they just carry on to drive but u-turning cause they are afraid to crash into you. thats all.I'm thinking too much but i just can't kan kai.maybe i'm thinking too much.but i did not act emo.everyone has a quiet side.i am an odd one out so i'm not needed and i moved on.i did not want to just rely on them like a glue sticking to them but i felt angry.i admitted it but i just didn't want to say it out.i know that this blog can be seen by others but sometimes writing is better then saying.when someone dun feel like talking to you and just felt like ignoring you, you will feel bad.i finally know how i treated people when i ignored them,they will feel sad and felt innocent,that was not their fault but why they are ignored.i am not acting,i will show my emotional straight away.that was not a form of getting attention.i felt really upset when i was said that i was acting emo,i maybe very quiet but i'm not acting,i'm really feeling
bad.