starting of holiday

i dun think i can enjoy my holiday except for the upcoming sjab camp. i just hate homework everytime holiday homework cannot enjoy.countdown to st john camp 12 days meiting say one.going to malaysia to visit my grandparents.feel like this month holiday very short.suddenly felt that i am not very popular in my class like not many people will talk to me felt so lonely but when i saw my cca friends i brightened up again.Its like when i approach the "sumone"she will very bu shuang de answer me.anywae she is not from my cca so dun be mistaken.I always like to chao jia wif people cause i think its fun but you no need to be so feng ci everythiing i do you always think its bad and criticise me.i may be fat but i have my own fashion sense and i hate people who compare me wif others ya i not as cute so!at first you told me you dun like her then i told you yes i dun like her then go around and spread say i dun like her but never include yourself.dun take advantage of wat you have,i let you sing first but in the end almost all the songs were sang by you.i felt betrayed by you ya very childish but that is the word to describe.if you are tired of me tell me,dun do things behind my back.you said you treat her well is jia jia one i dun really believe you . in everyways you are just a pai ma pi-an.i really feel that i am a sucker, i dunno how to deal wif relationship problems, i'm saying the friends kind.i'm always make fun of which i hope not.i just hope i can escape from secondary school and start a new life in polytechnic.