starting of holiday

i dun think i can enjoy my holiday except for the upcoming sjab camp. i just hate homework everytime holiday homework cannot enjoy.countdown to st john camp 12 days meiting say one.going to malaysia to visit my grandparents.feel like this month holiday very short.suddenly felt that i am not very popular in my class like not many people will talk to me felt so lonely but when i saw my cca friends i brightened up again.Its like when i approach the "sumone"she will very bu shuang de answer me.anywae she is not from my cca so dun be mistaken.I always like to chao jia wif people cause i think its fun but you no need to be so feng ci everythiing i do you always think its bad and criticise me.i may be fat but i have my own fashion sense and i hate people who compare me wif others ya i not as cute so!at first you told me you dun like her then i told you yes i dun like her then go around and spread say i dun like her but never include yourself.dun take advantage of wat you have,i let you sing first but in the end almost all the songs were sang by you.i felt betrayed by you ya very childish but that is the word to describe.if you are tired of me tell me,dun do things behind my back.you said you treat her well is jia jia one i dun really believe you . in everyways you are just a pai ma pi-an.i really feel that i am a sucker, i dunno how to deal wif relationship problems, i'm saying the friends kind.i'm always make fun of which i hope not.i just hope i can escape from secondary school and start a new life in polytechnic.

duno wat happened

Everydae saw her face like chou4 chou4 dunno wat i should say to her i dunnoe wat topic to sae as i am tired of being the one to start the conversation.to me i'm considered lucky for not being hurted by anione.i dunno why but since primary one till now i'm always treating people hot and cold and i do not wish to but i'm just irritated.Sorry to those who i treated badly,i just could not control.sometimes i'm jealous of her,why she was born pretty and cute and her relationships wif other people is better then me,maybe some people cannot accept how i treat them as i will treat you as my good friend if you treated me well but after that maybe they felt that i did not think of their feelings i just hope that there will be someone whom i will not be irritated of or treat badly.but now i think differently or just temporary.people are born wif different features i will wish that return to the past. i hope that i could return to the past when i saw her happy face everyday.i'm a person wif very low tolerance,if i'm very angry i will cry,if i'm pain i will also cry.
why must a always happy-go-lucky girl be hurted by those who backstabbed her and that man whom make her so miserable now, i rather she did not go through that relationship,at least she will not be that heartbroken.maybe because i had not been hurt by those boys.why is there BGR,it always hurt girls.i know this because i had saw lots of people hurt in 2e8. maybe they are happy together ,but if eventually you will be hurt i will as well expect not to be in it.I still have my friends and family, ren ru guo mei you le yi si de huo xia qu,na shi zui tong ku de yi jian shi.

After all this is just my Thinking don't take it to heart if you don't agree.

Just want to say a big sorry! to all those out there who i showed bad attitude to!